(Excerpted from "Soul Recovery")
I have written this book in order to take you from powerlessness to a place of shining in your full power.
That may seem impossible to you right now or, at best, a hopeful dream of a future you would like to have. If you are struggling with addiction, feeling peaceful and powerful in a real way that is connected to Source, to God, and to the depths of your own being can feel farther away than you are even capable of imagining.
But I am here to show you — with my story and my recovery that finding your power again is possible. It will depend on your own ability to be humble in the face of the demons you are fighting right now. But because you had the humility to pick up this book, I know you are ready to reclaim that power even if you are in the darkest place of your life.
I wrote this book because I believe in you. I believe you can escape the chains of addiction. In fact, I know you can. I am your ally, standing beside you, shining a light on the path that leads out of the nightmare of addiction, which simply means "in bondage, enslaved or attached. The French meaning of attachment is defined as being "nailed to." When you read the stories set out in this book, you will read about events that might sound like they could have come from your own life, where you have suffered from being nailed, in bondage or enslaved to a belief and behavior pattern that is causing painful and destructive results.
How many times have you found yourself over the moon with excitement about a new love in your life, just to find yourself on the floor in the fetal position with a broken heart, disappointed and disillusioned? I understand because I've experienced that repeated cycle of profound pain in my own life – until I made another decision.
Why does it happen?
The reason we relive the same experience over and over again in different relationships is because we bring the same core beliefs we hold about ourselves to the party.
We have subconsciously wired ourselves for disappointment and pain, and based on that hard wiring of our dominant beliefs/core wounds, we write the same script for a different scene in a never-ending loop.
How does it happen?
It’s important to go back to the very beginning: your relationship with your parents, siblings and teachers. But more specifically, look at the first relationship you had with a boy or girl as a teenager. What happened to you, how did you feel and what beliefs did you take on about yourself at that time?
I'd like to welcome you to Soul Recovery, a curriculum of twelve practices I used to heal myself of a particularly serious addiction, and that ultimately birthed the writing of the book of the same name. What I've learned, in applying and sharing this material in workshops, training and private sessions over the past 10 years, is that the very same approach I used to heal myself of smoking cocaine—apply to issues far beyond just alcohol or substance dependence.
You see, the reason that we obsess about a drug, a relationship, a job, or anything else, is that we have lost sight of the keys to our happiness. Through our life experience, we have "re-engineered" ourselves to believe that we are unworthy and incapable of being truly happy and truly fulfilled.
And that just isn't true!
We are entitled to feel as whole as we really are, and I've discovered that there is actually something we can do about that.
"Ester's life is one of transformation and redemption. In her hauntingly honest narrative about a life transformed and heartbreak transcended, she gives readers the 12 Keys to do this in their own lives."
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